I came up with the idea for this song around the time I came up with False Idol, in February of 2025, back when I was considering making an album. I held off on making it until False Idol was done, but as soon as False Idol was done (as in literally that evening), I started writing and recording. I thought it would be a good oppurtunity to introduce Neru to my music, while being paired with Miku so it would appeal to those who have never heard of Neru. Plus, it was a topic I had a lot of ideas and feelings about, and I liked being able to play around with a panned duet.
Lyrics:
Focus fraying/Losing track of what to do
Thoughts keep straying/Put it off 'til it's due
Trying hard to take steps one at a time/I don't know where I left my list
I get lost when something catches my eye/Somehow I always forget
I can't keep track of all my thoughts/I don't know what time it is
Somehow I got my wires crossed/Stressing over deadlines I'll miss
Problems compounding day by day
All the time I feel like something's in my way
Tools made for someone, just not me
And I know exactly what the cause is
See, I've got a two track mind and it's driving me insane
Endless abstract twinned screaming begging to be entertained
Inside this two track mind, it's a nightmare to maintain
All my time wasted fighting issues I can't explain
To keep this two track mind in a state where I can be
Too many thoughts to manage if I let them wander free
Stuck with this two track mind for as long as I foresee
So I have to handle this mental cacophony
No motivation/Can't hear anything through my head
Locked in fixations/No clue what you just said
Trying hard not to lose my energy/So many thoughts for me to say
It doesn't help when it's a necessity/Don't want to drive you away
Can't force myself to do the chore/Not sure what you meant by that
Somehow I end up on the floor/Don't know if the moment has passed
Help is unhelpful (thanks anyway)
In the end I blame it on a bad day
Of course my case is open-shut
Wish it was a curable problem
But I've got a two track mind and it's making my life hell
A pair of third rate demons no one knows how to expel
Inside this two track mind it's a struggle to stay well
Get one quiet but the other continues to yell
'Cause with this two track mind I don't get a bit of peace
Can't handle silence long without periodic release
Stuck with this two track mind with no sign that it will cease
And this cognitive discord likely will never decrease
Senseless torture, never ending, it echoes in my mind
It's hard to fight and hard to live with, but somehow I've survived
If I can fixate on the bright side I think I'll turn out fine
Maybe I can put this extra track to use and think of some upsides
Though life's not easy in most ways
And usually my mind is one to blame
Maybe I've been a bit too rough
It's not just a pure impairment but
A lively two track mind, that's a valid part of me
An endless cascade of ideas waiting to be seen
'Cause with this two track mind I get all the thoughts I need
Twice as much power to process all that I perceive
They say my two track mind is a disability
And if they're right well at least that means that I'm unique
I'll have this two track mind for as long as I can think
And I love to live with this synaptic symphony